Gratitude

Have you ever been in a situation where you just felt like you were about to break?? I know I have. Have you ever had your heartbroken so bad, that it cut so deep that you didn't know how you'd trust again? I have! Ever been lied to, betrayed, talked about, abused, raped, bullied and so much more..  Well some of those things I have also went through myself. But the most important thing that I noticed is that I've MADE it through some horrible things in my life. Even though we all feel in the back of our heads that the shit ain't fair, but then I think about what Jesus went through, and that was not fair at all. Especially because he was/is the Son of God who committed no sin. So I start too think if Jesus life wasn't easy, who said mine will be?. I notice while we are being processed by a Higher Power, we sit there and complain moan bitch groan and more, and I am guilty of it also. But as soon as that sun come's out and I'm standing tall on my own two feet, I play the thankful role. Yes dammit I said it, The thankful role. What I call the "Thankful Role" is when thank God for getting us through that hardship for so long and glad our going to church and bible study and putting a few dollars in the offering. God answered our prayers and pulled us through on TOP. Hmmm now truly think about this? When you make it out on "TOP", did you deserve it? and now that you are on "TOP" or in a better situation then your last, are you going to keep doing what God say's to do, or are you going back to "Your ways" because you life is now more convient for you? Interesting right? but what do we as Humans of the flesh do?. We go back to doing what we were doing before, turning our backs on our "Higher Power" and trying to survive on our own. To me this sum's up almost every persons life. We call on  God when we are alone and have nobody, when we are broke, when we need, want and so much more. But we are so guilty of being his children and not doing the simplest things of allowing him to live through us so that everyone on this planet may experience his love and mercy. I know I am guilty of this also but I am working on it. I can admit that.. but are you?. I don't know where you are in your journey with a "Higher Power", but I kno where mine is and I CAN'T live without him. I find myself in daily prayer, saying thank you way more then my normal 2years ago. Gratitude must be practiced. Once you get to this point of clarity and realize how much your "Higher Power"has done for you and does do for you daily, you life changes. The way you feel about life changes. The people in your life look different as well, you find yourself seeking for those people who feel like you full of gratitude and this beautiful Spiritual light to live life to the fullest. This is where I find myself as I write this. I will not be a hypocrite and say I feel like this all the time ooo no! sheesh just 6 hours ago I didn't feel like this. But I as a human I have to practice everyday. That my "Higher Power" has a Wonderful Life ahead of me, and if I am not thankful and can't be happy where I am now. I am never going to make it where I truly want to be in my Future. I Chrisandra-Yvelle has had a tough life, so far but I know there is someone who gave me this life because he knew that I was strong enough to overcome the trials of this life. To be the Wonderful person he wants me to be. And I am GRATEFUL and full of GRATITUDE just because he believes in me and knows I can make it. My relationship with my Heavenly Father is something I am and will always be forever Grateful. No religion, no person on this earth, cant tell me any different. So just look at your situation, and find something your grateful for and hold on to it with all your might. Have that be apart of you will to succeed in this life but always know your "Higher Power" will always be on your side.

With Every Footstep taken, is another Closer to our Destiny :)